Romance in Everything

I don't want to wake up each morning alone
I don't want to wake up and come to the realization that you never loved me
I don't want to think about the fact that the love that I thought I felt was a façade
I don't want to believe that you only saw me as a means to an end
I don't want to understand that you used me to get to my friend
I don't want to hear that your heart now belongs to another
although it technically never belonged to me.....

I don't want to see your face
it reminds of all those times that you said you loved me
and I believed it
I don't want to hear your name
it reminds me of all those blush worthy times I screamed it
in the heat of our passion, the one I thought was real.

everyday I keep picking at the scabs in heart
just my existence is pain,
seeing as I can't do anything without thinking of you
I loathe you, at the same time I love every part of you

I don't want to know anything about you
I have enough pain already
please don't inflict more
don't come to me saying sorry
it does not bring you back to me
rather seeing you is a constant reminder
a reminder of everything I lost...
I don't want anything that has to do with you

*words from a broken heart